1st Night On the Ward

It's nice that jessica is out now ICU because we know she is officially out of the woods :)  Hard part now is that she doesn't have the "one on one" care that was given in ICU.  The ward nurses are extremely busy and short staffed (can't blame them) and when we got to the ward, her pain medication wasn't given on time.

I feel steve and I walk a razor edge on so many decisions when it comes to decisions on surgeries and medication.  Do we or don't we give her a shot of morphine....knowing how it effects her.  There are difficult decisions that we make and realize there are no easy answers.  Once a decision is made we don't dwell on wishing we'd done things differently, because It could parlyze our future decisions.   The decison was to give her morphine.  It settled her pain, but gave her the twitches again.  I've pretty much had to stay by her bed so she wouldn't pull at her tubes or flip out of bed.  I'm counting down until midnight (2 hours, 21 minutes, 48 seconds) before she can get another shot of ketorolac.  She seems so much better on that stuff.